Dropping Your Barriers to Love

A while ago I thought I just needed the right man to love me in just the right way before I finally felt that deep sense of fulfillment that we women so desperately seek in relationship with men. I thought if I could only find a man that was affectionate, romantic and masculine then I could finally feel loved. Then enters El Guapo, barging into my life like a knight in shining armor. He went from a boy to a man, saying and doing all the right things and challenging me to grow and love in ways I never knew I could. He began to make all my wildest dreams come true as he loved me and showed up in the relationship exactly the way I needed him to. Yet, instead of feeling fulfilled I felt numb. I could not believe it. Why numb? Everything I have ever wanted was in front of me and I was frozen in fear. This has been an amazing lesson for me and I suspect other woman have gone through this also. I can only surmise that the reason I was fear stricken was because there was no one to blame and nothing to fight against. There was just pure unconditional, wonderful love pouring in from an amazing man. This meant I had to be real, vulnerable and have an open heart in love. This is why I froze. Over the last few years, I have learned that it is not that love does not show up for us, it’s that we don’t know what to do when it does show up. With no defenses or no self-sabotaging behaviors I am forced to let love in. It is a slow and painful process, but I know it is the next stage of growth. This stage is about allowing love in. I will call it the “Art of Allowing Love In.” For most of this year I have felt like I am stepping off a cliff into the abyss. I would never have guessed this was the next stage in love. I thought the right man and the right relationship was the end of the road. Little did I know that once those things show up you must drop your barriers to love  if you want to go beyond and see what lies on the other side. A Goddess is brave enough to take this step and wise enough to know it is her own barriers to love that  stand in her way.

Much Love,

Malena