Two Lessons in Love
El Guapo (my husband) is back! He has been working out of town for 2 years and I can’t believe I emotionally survived this long. Well, actually I can believe it because I worked my tail off pushing through the fire of my abandonment triggers while he was gone. I know life sent me this experience (having a husband work out of town) so I could clean out the dark corners in my heart where I stored unhealed energy and guess what…. I DID IT! With some tears and a few whiney moments, I mastered it. I know I did the emotional work because having him home feels AMAZING, yet I felt amazing while he was gone too. Having him home now feels like icing on my cake! It especially feels good to have that strong masculine energy back in the house and in my day to day life. I love that he drives me around, worries about the dog, buys me coffee, helps the kids with math homework, puts up the Christmas tree, hires the handyman and asks me about my day each night before bed. I get to relax in his strength and guidance.
Having him home now feels like icing on my cake!
So with this said, my first lesson to share today is - a “Goddess” must feel good with or without her man. This is the magic that allows the relationship to have a smooth and easy flow. It is also what makes a man fall in love and keeps him entranced in a Goddess’s magical world. The happiness in your relationship is conjured up inside you first then it is shared. Your happiness is created by doing things that make you feel good and thinking thoughts filled with love.
Now let me take you deeper into the complex world of healing and love. So El Guapo is back and guess what? The control freak in me has resurfaced! Now that he is back there are so many changes and things happening in our lives and I feel I am in a perpetual state of wanting to control it all! I can’t tell you how many times I have held my tongue as I try to restrain myself from controlling his every move. I do this because I know a Goddess relaxes and receives. She allows her man to steer his own life as she just fuels him with love and life energy. She doesn’t analyze his every move and criticizes his decisions and actions. She let’s nature teach him the consequences of acting like a boy or the rewards for being a man. She accepts where he leads her and lets go of control. She uses all her energy creating a life for herself that feels good, loving and full.
A Goddess relaxes and receives
So this leads me to my second lesson in today’s blog - Control your inner Control Freak. Put that little monster on a leash. A masculine man wants to feel free and a controlling woman only repels him. So as always, I do my goddess work and let go of control - I get comfortable in my own skin; I manage my emotions, I enjoy El Guapo’s masculine gifts and I release the need to control him and life. My only job is to follow what makes me feel good and share my light and love.
So take time to witness how often you are trying to control your man and the direction of your relationship. When you notice it - STOP, BREATHE AND LET GO. Allow yourself to feel the depths of uncertainty and just let go. You can handle your feelings. This release will allow your man to naturally and willing give you his gifts.